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Why the hell am I doing this?

I have been scarce here lately. I know I have. Some of you may already have a suspicion as to why — I’m home-shopping. But because I am in the journalism field, I don’t make enough money to make this sound even slightly exciting. Basically because I can’t afford the home I really want. I have to make exceptions, taper down my expectations and realize I may need to put work into one that I can afford. After chatting with friends and coworkers, there always seems to be an underlying opinion that I’m making a mistake.

I’ve heard one thing after another.

“You are single, why would you want to own a home?”

“Having a house is work.”

“Why now? Wait until you can afford the house you want.”

About that last one — I just have to say that I will be waiting a very long while to afford what I want and that means more and more money down the drain. The thing is no one can really know what it’s like for a person unless they live their life for a day. And the main thing I need to remember that it is ME who is making this decision and working on what’s best for my life. And if I want to ruin it with an almost move-in ready fixer-upper, then that’s what I’ll do — and with bottles of wine at arm’s length! So forgive me if I’m not all here. Though I was never all there in the first place.